Maximilian searched for them in the carriage house and the cattle shed, even had a look in the springhouse, although he knew almost at first glance he wouldn't find them there. Rudy wouldn't hide in a place like that, dank and chill, no windows and so no light, a place that smelled of bats. It was too much like a basement. Rudy never went in their basement back home if he could help it, was afraid the door would shut behind him, and he'd find himself trapped in the suffocating dark.
Max
checked the barn last, but they weren't hiding there either, and when
he came into the dooryard, he saw with a shock dusk had come. He had
never imagined it could be so late.
"No more this game," he shouted. "Rudolf! We have to go." Only when he said
have
it came out hoff, a noise like a horse sneezing. He hated the sound of
his own voice, envied his younger brother's confident American
pronunciations. Rudolf had been born here, had never seen Amsterdam. Max
had lived the first five years of his life there, in a dimly lit
apartment that smelled of mildewed velvet curtains, and the latrine
stink of the canal below.
Max
hollered until his throat was raw, but in the end, all his shouting
brought only Mrs. Kutchner, who shuffled slowly across the porch,
hugging herself for warmth, although it was not cold. When she reached
the railing she took it in both hands and sagged forward, using it to
hold herself up.
This
time last fall, Mrs. Kutchner had been agreeably plump, dimples in her
fleshy cheeks, her face always flushed from the heat of the kitchen. Now
her face was starved, the skin pulled tight across the skull beneath,
her eyes feverish and bird-bright in their bony hollows. Her daughter,
Arlene-who at this very moment was hiding with Rudy somewhere-had
whispered that her mother kept a tin bucket next to the bed, and when
her father carried it to the outhouse in the morning to empty it, it
sloshed with a quarter inch of bad-smelling blood.
"You'n
go on if you want, dear," she said. "I'll tell your brother to run on
home when he crawls out from whatever hole he's in."
"Did
I wake you, Mrs. Kutchner?" he asked. She shook her head, but his guilt
was not eased. "I'm sorry to get you out of bed. My loud mouth." Then,
his tone uncertain: "Do you think you should be up?"
"Are
you doctorin me, Max Van Helsing? You don't think I get enough of that
from your daddy?" she asked, one corner of her mouth rising in a weak
smile.
"No ma'am. I mean, yes ma'am."
Rudy
would've said something clever to make her whoop with laughter and clap
her hands. Rudy belonged on the radio, a child star on someone's
variety program. Max never knew what to say, and anyway, wasn't suited
to comedy. It wasn't just his accent, although that was a source of
constant discomfort for him, one more reason to speak as little as
possible. But it was also a matter of temperament; he often found
himself unable to fight his way through his own smothering reserve.
"He's pretty strict about havin you two boys in before dark, isn't he?"
"Yes ma'am," he said.
"There's
plenty like him," she said. "They brung the old country over with them.
Although I would have thought a doctor wouldn't be so superstitious.
Educated and all."
Max
suppressed a shudder of revulsion. Saying that his father was
superstitious was an understatement of grotesquely funny proportions.
"You
wouldn't think he'd worry so much about one like you," she went on. "I
can't imagine you've ever been any trouble in your life."
"Thank
you, ma'am," said Max, when what he really wanted to say was he wished
more than anything she'd go back inside, lie down and rest. Sometimes it
seemed to him he was allergic to expressing himself. Often, when he
desperately wanted to say a thing, he could actually feel his windpipe
closing up on him, cutting off his air. He wanted to offer to help her
in, imagined taking her elbow, leaning close enough to smell her hair.
He wanted to tell her he prayed for her at night, not that his prayers
could be assumed to have value; Max had prayed for his own mother, too,
but it hadn't made any difference. He said none of these things.
Thank you, ma'am was the most he could manage.
"You
go on," she said. "Tell your father I asked Rudy to stay behind, help
me clean up a mess in the kitchen. I'll send him along."
"Yes, ma'am. Thank you, ma'am. Tell him hurry please."
When
he was in the road he looked back. Mrs. Kutchner clutched a
handkerchief to her lips, but she immediately removed it, and flapped it
in a gay little wave, a gesture so endearing it made Max sick to his
bones. He raised his own hand to her and then turned away. The sound of
her harsh, barking coughs followed him up the road for a while-an angry
dog, slipped free of its tether and chasing him away.
When
he came into the yard, the sky was the shade of blue closest to black,
except for a faint bonfire glow in the west where the sun had just
disappeared, and his father was sitting on the porch waiting with the
quirt. Max paused at the bottom of the steps, looking up at him. His
father's eyes were hooded, impossible to see beneath the bushy
steel-wool tangles of his eyebrows.
Max waited for him to say something. He didn't. Finally, Max gave up and spoke himself. "It's still light."
"The sun is down."
"We are just at Arlene's. It isn't even ten minutes away."
"Yes,
Mrs. Kutchner's is very safe. A veritable fortress. Protected by a
doddering farmer who can barely bend over, his rheumatism pains him so,
and an illiterate peasant whose bowels are being eaten by cancer."
"She
is not illiterate," Max said. He heard how defensive he sounded, and
when he spoke again, it was in a tone of carefully modulated reason.
"They can't bear the light. You say so yourself. If it isn't dark there
is nothing to fear. Look how bright the sky."
His father nodded, allowing the point, then said, "And where is Rudolf?"
"He is right behind me."
The old man craned his head on his neck, making an exaggerated show of searching the empty road behind Max.
"I mean, he is coming," Max said. "He stops to help clean something for Mrs. Kutchner."
"Clean what?"
"A
bag of flour I think. It breaks open, scatters on everything. She's
going to clean herself, but Rudy say no he wants to do it. I tell them I
will run ahead so you will not wonder where we are. He'll be here any
minute."
His
father sat perfectly still, his back rigid, his face immobile. Then,
just when Max thought the conversation was over, he said, very slowly,
"And so you left him?"
Max
instantly saw, with a sinking feeling of despair, the corner he had
painted himself into, but it was too late now, no talking his way back
out of it. "Yes sir."
"To walk home alone? In the dark?"
"Yes sir."
"I see. Go in. To your studies."
Max
made his way up the steps, towards the front door, which was partly
open. He felt himself clenching up as he went past the rocking chair,
expecting the quirt. Instead, when his father lunged, it was to clamp
his hand on Max's wrist, squeezing so hard Max grimaced, felt the bones
separating in the joint.
His
father sucked at the air, a sissing indraw of breath, a sound Max had
learned was often prelude to a right cross. "You know our enemies? And
still you dally with your friends until the night come?"
Max
tried to answer, but couldn't, felt his windpipe closing, felt himself
choking again on the things he wanted, but didn't have the nerve, to
say.
"Rudolf
I expect not to learn. He is American, here they believe the child
should teach the parent. I see how he look at me when I talk. How he try
not to laugh. This is bad. But you. At least when Rudolf disobey, it is
deliberate, I feel him
engaging
me. You disobey in a stupor, without considering, and then you wonder
why sometime I can hardly stand to look at you. Mr. Barnum has a horse
that can add small numbers. It is considered one of the great amazements
of his circus. If you were once to show the slightest comprehension of
what things I tell you, it would be wonder on the same order." He let go
of Max's wrist, and Max took a drunken step backwards, his arm
throbbing. "Go inside and out of my sight. You will want to rest. That
uncomfortable buzzing in your head is the hum of thought. I know the
sensation must be quite unfamiliar." Tapping his own temple to show
where the thoughts were.
"Yes
sir," Max said, in a tone-he had to admit-which sounded stupid and
churlish. Why did his father's accent sound cultured and worldly, while
the same accent made himself sound like a dull-witted Scandinavian
farmhand, someone good at milking the cows maybe, but who would goggle
in fear and confusion at an open book. Max turned into the house,
without looking where he was going, and batted his head against the
bulbs of garlic hanging from the top of the door frame. His father
snorted at him.
Max
sat in the kitchen, a lamp burning at the far end of the table, not
enough to dispel the darkness gathering in the room. He waited,
listening, his head cocked so he could see through the window and into
the yard. He had his English Grammar open in front of him, but he didn't
look at it, couldn't find the will to do anything but sit and watch for
Rudy. In a while it was too dark to see the road, though, or anyone
coming along it. The tops of the pines were black cutouts etched across a
sky that was a color like the last faint glow of dying coals. Soon even
that was gone, and into the darkness was cast a handful of stars, a
scatter of bright flecks. Max heard his father in the rocker, the soft
whine-and-thump of the curved wooden runners going back and forth over
the boards of the porch. Max shoved his hands through his hair, pulling
at it, chanting to himself,
Rudy,
come on, wanting more than anything for the waiting to be over. It
might've been an hour. It might've been fifteen minutes.
Then
he heard him, the soft chuff of his brother's feet in the chalky dirt
at the side of the road; he slowed as he came into the yard, but Max
suspected he had just been running, a hypothesis that was confirmed as
soon as Rudy spoke. Although he tried for his usual tone of good humor,
he was winded, could only speak in bursts.
"Sorry, sorry. Mrs. Kutchner. An accident. Asked me to help. I know. Late."
The rocker stopped moving. The boards creaked, as their father came to his feet.
"So Max said. And did you get the mess clean up?"
"Yuh.
Uh-huh. Arlene and I. Arlene ran through the kitchen. Wasn't looking.
Mrs. Kutchner-Mrs. Kutchner dropped a stack of plates-"
Max shut his eyes, bent his head forward, yanking at the roots of his hair in anguish.
"Mrs. Kutchner shouldn't tire herself. She's unwell. Indeed, I think she can hardly rise from bed."
"That's
what-that's what I thought. Too." Rudy's voice at the bottom of the
porch. He was beginning to recover his air. "It's not really all the way
dark yet."
"It
isn't? Ah. When one get to my age, the vision fail some, and dusk is
often mistake for night. Here I was thinking sunset has come and gone
twenty minutes ago. What time-?" Max heard the steely snap of his father
opening his pocket watch. He sighed. "But it's too dark for me to read
the hands. Well. Your concern for Mrs. Kutchner, I admire."
"Oh it-it was nothing-" Rudy said, putting his foot on the first step of the porch.
"But
really, you should worry more about your own well-being, Rudolf," said
their father, his voice calm, benevolent, speaking in the tone Max often
imagined him employing when addressing patients he knew were in the
final stages of a fatal illness. It was after dark and the doctor was
in.
Rudy said, "I'm sorry, I'm-"
"You're sorry now. But your regret will be more palpable momentarily."
The
quirt came down with a meaty smack, and Rudy, who would be ten in two
weeks, screamed. Max ground his teeth, his hands still digging in his
hair; pressed his wrists against his ears, trying vainly to block out
the sounds of shrieking, and of the quirt striking at flesh, fat and
bone.
With
his ears covered he didn't hear their father come in. He looked up when
a shadow fell across him. Abraham stood in the doorway to the hall,
hair disheveled, collar askew, the quirt pointed at the floor. Max
waited to be hit with it, but no blow came.
"Help your brother in."
Max
rose unsteadily to his feet. He couldn't hold the old man's gaze so he
lowered his eyes, found himself staring at the quirt instead. The back
of his father's hand was freckled with blood. Max drew a thin, dismayed
breath.
"You see what you make me do."
Max didn't reply. Maybe no answer was necessary or expected.
His
father stood there for a moment longer, then turned, and strode away
into the back of the house, toward the private study he always kept
locked, a room in which they were forbidden to enter without his
permission. Many nights he nodded off there, and could be heard shouting
in his sleep, cursing in Dutch.
"Stop running," Max shouted. "I catch you eventually."
Rudolf
capered across the corral, grabbed the rail and heaved himself over it,
sprinted for the side of the house, his laughter trailing behind him.
"Give
it back," Max said, and he leaped the rail without slowing down, hit
the ground without losing a step. He was angry, really angry, and in his
fury possessed an unlikely grace; unlikely because he was built along
the same lines as his father, with the rough dimensions of a water
buffalo taught to walk on its back legs.
Rudy,
by contrast, had their mother's delicate build, to go with her
porcelain complexion. He was quick, but Max was closing in anyway. Rudy
was looking back over his shoulder too much, not concentrating on where
he was going. He was almost to the side of the house. When he got there,
Max would have him trapped against the wall, could easily cut off any
attempt to break left or right.
But
Rudy didn't break to the left or right. The window to their father's
study was pushed open about a foot, revealing a cool library darkness.
Rudy grabbed the windowsill over his head-he still held Max's letter in
one hand-and with a giddy glance back, heaved himself into the shadows.
However
their father felt about them arriving home after dark, it was nothing
compared to how he would feel to discover either one of them had gained
entry to his most private sanctum. But their father was gone, had taken
the Ford somewhere, and Max didn't slow down to think what would happen
if he suddenly returned. He jumped and grabbed his brother's ankle,
thinking he would drag the little worm back out into the light, but Rudy
screamed, twisted his foot out of Max's grasp. He fell into darkness,
crashed to the floorboards with an echoing thud that caused glass to
rattle softly against glass somewhere in the office. Then Max had the
windowsill and he yanked himself into the air-
"Go slow, Max, it's a… " his brother cried.
– and he thrust himself through the window.
"Big drop," Rudy finished.
Max
had been in his father's study before, of course (sometimes Abraham
invited them in for "a talk," by which he meant he would talk and they
would listen), but he had never entered the room by way of the window.
He spilled forward, had a startling glance of the floor almost three
feet below him, and realized he was about to dive into it face first. At
the edge of his vision he saw a round end table, next to one of his
father's armchairs, and he reached for it to stop his fall. His momentum
continued to carry him forward, and he crashed to the floor. At the
last moment, he turned his face aside and most of his weight came down
on his right shoulder. The furniture leaped. The end table turned over,
dumping everything on it. Max heard a bang, and a glassy crack that was
more painful to him then the soreness he felt in either head or
shoulder.
Rudy
sprawled a yard away from him, sitting on the floor, still grinning a
little foolishly. He held the letter half-crumpled in one hand,
forgotten.
The
end table was on its side, fortunately not broken. But an empty inkpot
had smashed, lay in gleaming chunks close to Max's knee. A stack of
books had been flung across the Persian carpet. A few papers swirled
overhead, drifting slowly to the floor with a swish and a scrape.
"You
see what you make me do," Max said, gesturing at the inkpot. Then he
flinched, realizing that this was exactly what his father had said to
him a few nights before; he didn't like the old man peeping out from
inside him, talking through him like a puppet, a hollowed-out,
empty-headed boy of wood.
"We'll just throw it away," Rudy said.
"He knows where everything in his office is. He will notice it missing."
"My
balls. He comes in here to drink brandy, fart in his couch and fall
asleep. I've been in here lots of times. I took his lighter for smokes
last month and he still hasn't noticed."
"You
what?" Max asked, staring at his younger brother in genuine surprise,
and not without a certain envy. It was the older brother's place to take
foolish risks, and be casually detached about it later.
"Who's
this letter to, that you had to go and hide somewhere to write it? I
was watching you work on it over your shoulder. 'I still remember how I
held your hand in mine.'" Rudy's voice swooping and fluttering in
mock-romantic passion.
Max
lunged at his brother, but was too slow, Rudy had flipped the letter
over and was reading the beginning. The smile began to fade, thought
lines wrinkling the pale expanse of his forehead; then Max had ripped
the sheet of paper away.
"Mother?" Rudy asked, thoroughly nonplussed.
"It
was assignment for school. We were ask if you wrote a letter to anyone,
who would it be? Mrs. Louden tell us it could be someone imaginary
or-or historic figure. Someone dead."
"You'd turn that in? And let Mrs. Louden read it?"
"I
don't know. I am not finish yet." But as Max spoke, he was already
beginning to realize he had made a mistake, allowed himself to get
carried away by the fascinating possibilities of the assignment, the
irresistible
what
if of it, and had written things too personal for him to show anyone.
He had written you were the only one I knew how to talk to and I am
sometimes so lonely. He had really been imagining her reading it,
somehow, somewhere-perhaps as he wrote it, some astral form of her
staring over his shoulder, smiling sentimentally as his pen scratched
across the page. It was a mawkish, absurd fantasy and he felt a
withering embarrassment to think he had given in to it so completely.
His
mother had already been weak and ill when the scandal drove their
family from Amsterdam. They lived for a while in England, but word of
the terrible thing their father had done (whatever it was-Max doubted he
would ever know) followed them. On they had gone to America. His father
believed he had acquired a position as a lecturer at Vassar College,
was so sure of this he had ladled much of his savings into the purchase
of a handsome nearby farm. But in New York City they were met by the
dean, who told Abraham Van Helsing that he could not, in good
conscience, allow the doctor to work unsupervised with young ladies who
were not yet at the age of consent. Max knew now his father had killed
his mother as surely as if he had held a pillow over her face in her
sickbed. It wasn't the travel that had done her in, although that was
bad enough, too much for a woman who was both pregnant and weak with a
chronic infection of the blood which caused her to bruise at the
slightest touch. It was humiliation. Mina had not been able to survive
the shame of what he had done, what they were all forced to run from.
"Come on," Max said. "Let's clean up and get out of here."
He righted the table and began gathering the books, but turned his head when Rudy said, "Do you believe in vampires, Max?"
Rudy
was on his knees in front of an ottoman across the room. He had hunched
over to collect a few papers which had settled there, then stayed to
look at the battered doctor's bag tucked underneath it. Rudy tugged at
the rosary knotted around the handles.
"Leave that alone," Max said. "We need to clean, not make bigger mess."
"Do you?"
Max was briefly silent. "Mother was attacked. Her blood was never the same after. Her illness."
"Did
she ever say she was attacked, or did he?"
"She died when I was six. She would not confide in a child about such a thing."
"But…
do you think we're in danger?" Rudy had the bag open now. He reached in
to remove a bundle, carefully wrapped in royal purple fabric. Wood
clicked against wood inside the velvet. "That vampires are out there,
waiting for a chance at us. For our guard to drop?"
"I would not discount possibility. However unlikely."
"However
unlikely," his brother said, laughing softly. He opened the velvet wrap
and looked in at the nine-inch stakes, skewers of blazing white wood,
handles wrapped in oiled leather. "Well I think it's all bullshit.
Bullll-shit." Singing a little.
The
course of the discussion unnerved Max. He felt, for an instant,
light-headed with vertigo, as if he suddenly found himself peering over a
steep drop. And perhaps that wasn't too far off. He had always known
the two of them would have this conversation someday and he feared where
it might take them. Rudy was never happier than when he was making an
argument, but he didn't follow his doubts to their logical conclusion.
He could say it was all bullshit, but didn't pause to consider what that
meant about their father, a man who feared the night as a person who
can't swim fears the ocean. Max almost
needed
it to be true, for vampires to be real, because the other
possibility-that their father was, and always had been, in the grip of a
psychotic fantasy-was too awful, too overwhelming.
He
was still considering how to reply when his attention was caught by a
picture frame, slid halfway in under his father's armchair. It was face
down, but he knew what he'd see when he turned it over. It was a
sepia-toned calotype print of his mother, posed in the library of their
townhouse in Amsterdam. She wore a white straw hat, her ebon hair
fluffed in airy curls beneath it. One gloved hand was raised in an
enigmatic gesture, so that she almost appeared to be waving an invisible
cigarette in the air. Her lips were parted. She was saying something,
Max often wondered what. He for some reason imagined himself to be
standing just out of the frame, a child of four, staring solemnly up at
her. He felt that she was raising her hand to wave him back, keep him
from wandering into the shot. If this was so, it seemed reasonable to
believe she had been caught forever in the act of saying his name.
He
heard a scrape and a tinkle of falling glass as he picked the picture
frame up and turned it over. The plate of glass had shattered in the
exact center. He began wiggling small gleaming fangs of glass out of the
frame and setting them aside, concerned that none should scratch the
glossy calotype beneath. He pulled a large wedge of glass out of the
upper corner of the frame, and the corner of the print came loose with
it. He reached up to poke the print back into place… and then hesitated,
frowning, feeling for a moment that his eyes had crossed and he was
seeing double. There appeared to be a second print behind the first. He
tugged the photograph of his mother out of the frame, then stared
without understanding at the picture that had been secreted behind it.
An icy numbness spread through his chest, crawling into his throat. He
glanced around and was relieved to see Rudy still kneeling at the
ottoman, humming to himself, rolling the stakes back up into their
shroud of velvet.
He
looked back at the secret photograph. The woman in it was dead. She was
also naked from the waist up, her gown torn open and yanked to the
curve of her waist. She was sprawled in a four-poster bed-pinned there
by ropes wound around her throat, and pulling her arms over her head.
She was young and maybe had been beautiful, it was hard to tell; one eye
was shut, the other open in a slit that showed the unnatural glaze on
the eyeball beneath. Her mouth was forced open, stuffed with an obscene
misshapen white ball. She was actually biting down on it, her upper lip
drawn back to show the small, even row of her upper palate. The side of
her face was discolored with bruise. Between the milky, heavy curves of
her breasts was a spoke of white wood. Her left rib-cage was painted
with blood.
Even
when he heard the car in the drive, he couldn't move, couldn't pry his
gaze from the photograph. Then Rudy was up, pulling at Max's shoulder,
telling him they had to go. Max clapped the photo to his chest to keep
his brother from seeing. He said go, I'll be right behind you, and Rudy
took his hand off his arm and went on.
Max
fumbled with the picture frame, struggling to fit the calotype of the
murdered woman back into place… then saw something else, went still
again. He had not until this instant taken notice of the figure to the
far left in the photograph, a man on the near side of the bed. His back
was to the photographer, and he was so close in the foreground that his
shape was a blurred, vaguely rabbinical figure, in a flat-brimmed black
hat and black overcoat. There was no way to be sure who this man was,
but Max
was
sure, knew him from the way he held his head, the careful, almost stiff
way it was balanced on the thick barrel of his neck. In one hand he
held a hatchet. In the other a doctor's bag.
The
car died with an emphysemic wheeze and tinny clatter. He squeezed the
photograph of the dead woman into the frame, slid the portrait of Mina
back on top of it. He set the picture, with no glass in it, on the end
table, stared at it for a beat, then saw with horror that he had stuck
Mina in upside down. He started to reach for it.
"Come on!" Rudy cried. "Please, Max." He was outside, standing on his tiptoes to look back into the study.
Max
kicked the broken glass under the armchair, stepped to the window, and
screamed. Or tried to-he didn't have the air in his lungs, couldn't
force it up his throat.
Their
father stood behind Rudy, staring in at Max over Rudy's head. Rudy
didn't see, didn't know he was there, until their father put his hands
on his shoulders. Rudolf had no trouble screaming at all, and leaped as
if he meant to jump back into the study.
The old man regarded his eldest son in silence. Max stared back, head half out the window, hands on the sill.
"If
you like," his father said. "I could open the door and you could effect
your exit by the hallway. What it lacks in drama, it makes up in
convenience."
"No," Max said. "No thank you. Thank you. I'm-we're-this is-mistake. I'm sorry."
"Mistake
is not knowing capital of Portugal on a geography test. This is
something else." He paused, lowering his head, his face stony. Then he
released Rudy, and turned away, opening a hand and pointing it at the
yard in a gesture that seemed to mean,
step this way. "We will discuss what at later date. Now if it is no trouble, I will ask you to leave my office."
Max
stared. His father had never before delayed punishment-breaking and
entering his study at the least deserved a vigorous lashing-and he tried
to think why he would now. His father waited. Max climbed out, dropped
into the flower bed. Rudy looked at him, eyes helpless, pleading, asking
him what they ought to do. Max tipped his head towards the
stables-their own private study-and started walking slowly and
deliberately away. His little brother fell into step beside him,
trembling continuously.
Before they could get away, though, his father's hand fell on Max's shoulder.
"My
rules are to protect you always, Maximilian," he said. "Maybe you are
tell me now you don't want to be protect any longer? When you were
little I cover your eyes at the theater, when come the murderers to
slaughter Clarence in
Richard. But then, later, when we went to Macbeth, you shove my hand away, you want to see. Now I feel history repeats, nuh?"
Max didn't reply. At last his father released him.
They
had not gone ten paces when he spoke again. "Oh I almost forget. I did
not tell you where or why I was gone and I have piece of news I know
will make sad the both of you. Mr. Kutchner run up the road while you
were in school, shouting doctor, doctor, come quick, my wife. As soon as
I see her, burning with fever, I know she must travel to Dr. Rosen's
infirmary in town, but alas, the farmer come for me too late. Walking
her to my car, her intestines fall out of her with a
slop."
He made a soft clucking sound with his tongue, as of disapproval. "I
will have our suits cleaned. The funeral is on Friday."
Arlene
Kutchner wasn't in school the next day. They walked past her house on
the way home, but the black shutters were across the windows, and the
place had a too-silent, abandoned feel to it. The funeral would be in
town the next morning, and perhaps Arlene and her father had already
gone there to wait. They had family in the village. When the two boys
tramped into their own yard, the Ford was parked alongside the house,
and the slanted double doors to the basement were open.
Rudy
pointed himself towards the barn-they owned a single horse, a used-up
nag named Rice, and it was Rudy's day to muck out her stable-and Max
went into the house alone. He was at the kitchen table when he heard the
doors to the cellar crash shut outside. Shortly afterwards his father
climbed the stairs, appeared in the basement doorway.
"Are you work on something down there?" Max asked.
His father's gaze swept across him, but his eyes were deliberately blank.
"Later
I shall unfold to you," he said, and Max watched him while he removed a
silver key from the pocket of his waistcoat, and turned it in the lock
to the basement door. It had never been used before and until that
moment, Max had not even known a key existed.
Max was on edge the rest of the afternoon, kept looking at the basement door, unsettled by his father's promise:
Later
I shall unfold to you. There was of course no opportunity to talk to
Rudy about it over dinner, to speculate on just what might be unfolded,
but they were also unable to talk afterward, when they remained at the
kitchen table with their schoolbooks. Usually, their father retired
early to his study to be alone, and they wouldn't see him again until
morning. But tonight he seemed restless, always coming in and out of the
room, to wash a glass, to find his reading glasses, and finally, to
light a lantern. He adjusted the wick, so a low red flame wavered at the
bottom of the glass chimney, and then set it on the table before Max.
"Boys," he said, turning to the basement, unlocking the bolt. "Go downstairs. Wait for me. Touch nothing."
Rudy
threw a horrified, whey-faced look at Max. Rudy couldn't bear the
basement, its low ceiling and its smell, the lacy veils of cobwebs in
the corners. If Rudy was ever given a chore there, he always begged Max
to go with him. Max opened his mouth to question their father, but he
was already slipping away, out of the room, disappearing down the hall
to his study.
Max looked at Rudy. Rudy was shaking his head in wordless denial.
"It will be all right," Max promised. "I will take care of you."
Rudy
carried the lantern, and let Max go ahead of him down the stairs. The
reddish-bronze light of the lamp threw shadows that leaned and jumped, a
surging darkness that lapped at the walls of the stairwell. Max
descended to the basement floor and took a slow, uncertain look around.
To the left of the stairs was a worktable. On top of it was a pile of
something, covered in a piece of grimy white tarp-stacks of bricks
maybe, or heaps of folded laundry, it was hard to tell in the gloom
without going closer. Max crept in slow, shuffling steps until he had
crossed most of the way to the table, and then he stopped, suddenly
knowing what the sheet covered.
"We
need to go, Max," Rudy peeped, right behind him. Max hadn't known he
was there, had thought he was still standing on the steps. "We need to
go right now." And Max knew he didn't mean just get out of the basement,
but get out of the house, run from the place where they had lived ten
years and not come back.
But
it was too late to pretend they were Huck and Jim and light out for the
territories. Their father's feet fell heavily on the dusty wood planks
behind them. Max glanced up the stairs at him. He was carrying his
doctor's bag.
"I
can only deduce," their father began, "from your ransack of my private
study, you have finally develop interest in the secret work to which I
sacrifice so much. I have in my time kill six of the Undead by my own
hand, the last the diseased bitch in the picture I keep hid in my
office-I believe you have both see it." Rudy cast a panicked look at
Max, who only shook his head,
be
silent. Their father went on: "I have train others in the art of
destroying the vampire, including your mother's unfortunate first
husband, Jonathan Harker, Gott bless him, and so I can be held
indirectly responsible for the slaughter of perhaps fifty of their
filthy, infected kind. And it is now, I see, time my own boys learn how
it is done. How to be sure. So you may know how to strike at those who
would strike at you."
"I don't want to know," Rudy said.
"He didn't see picture," Max said at the same time.
Their
father appeared not to hear either of them. He moved past them to the
worktable, and the canvas covered shape upon it. He lifted one corner of
the tarp and looked beneath it, made a humming sound of approval, and
pulled the covering away.
Mrs.
Kutchner was naked, and hideously withered, her cheeks sunken, her
mouth gaping open. Her stomach was caved impossibly in beneath her ribs,
as if everything in it had been sucked out by the pressure of a vacuum.
Her back was bruised a deep bluish violet by the blood that had settled
there. Rudy moaned and hid his face against Max's side.
Their father set his doctor's bag beside her body, and opened it.
"She
isn't, of course, Undead. Merely dead. True vampires are uncommon, and
it would not be practicable, or advisable, for me to find one for you to
rehearse on. But she will suit for purposes of demonstration." From
within his bag he removed the bundle of stakes wrapped in velvet.
"What is she doing here?" Max asked. "They bury her tomorrow."
"But
today I am to make autopsy, for purposes of my private research. Mr.
Kutchner understand, is happy to cooperate, if it mean one day no other
woman die in such a way." He had a stake in one hand, a mallet in the
other.
Rudy began to cry.
Max
felt he was coming unmoored from himself. His body stepped forward,
without him in it; another part of him remained beside Rudy, an arm
around his brother's heaving shoulders. Rudy was saying,
Please
I want to go upstairs. Max watched himself walk, flat-footed, to his
father, who was staring at him with an expression that mingled curiosity
with a certain quiet appreciation.
He
handed Max the mallet and that brought him back. He was in his own body
again, conscious of the weight of the hammer, tugging his wrist
downward. His father gripped Max's other hand and lifted it, drawing it
towards Mrs. Kutchner's meager breasts. He pressed Max's fingertips to a
spot between two ribs and Max looked into the dead woman's face. Her
mouth open as to speak.
Are you doctorin' me, Max Van Helsing?
"Here,"
his father said, folding one of the stakes into his hand. "You drive it
in here. To the hilt. In an actual case, the first blow will be follow
by wailing, profanity, a frantic struggle to escape. The accursed never
go easily. Bear down. Do not desist from your work until you have impale
her and she has give up her struggle against you. It will be over soon
enough."
Max
raised the mallet. He stared into her face and wished he could say he
was sorry, that he didn't want to do it. When he slammed the mallet
down, with an echoing bang, he heard a high, piercing scream and almost
screamed himself, believing for an instant it was her, still somehow
alive; then realized it was Rudy. Max was powerfully built, with his
deep water buffalo chest and Scandinavian farmer's shoulders. With the
first blow he had driven the stake over two-thirds of the way in. He
only needed to bring the mallet down once more. The blood that squelched
up around the wood was cold and had a sticky, viscous consistency.
Max swayed, his head light. His father took his arm.
"Goot,"
Abraham whispered into his ear, his arms around him, squeezing him so
tightly his ribs creaked. Max felt a little thrill of pleasure-an
automatic reaction to the intense, unmistakable affection of his
father's embrace-and was sickened by it. "To do offense to the house of
the human spirit, even after its tenant depart, is no easy thing, I
know."
His
father went on holding him. Max stared at Mrs. Kutchner's gaping mouth,
the delicate row of her upper teeth, and found himself remembering the
girl in the calotype print, the ball of garlic jammed in her mouth.
"Where were her fangs?" Max said.
"Hm? Whose? What?" his father said.
"In the photograph of the one you kill," Max said, turning his head and looking into his father's face. "She didn't have fangs."
His father stared at him, his eyes blank, uncomprehending. Then he said, "They disappear after the vampire die.
Poof."
He released him and Max could breathe normally again. Their father straightened.
"Now, there remain one thing," he said. "The head must be remove, and the mouth stuff with garlic. Rudolf!"
Max
turned his head slowly. His father had moved back a step. In one hand
he held a hatchet, Max didn't know where it had come from. Rudy was on
the stairs, three steps from the bottom. He stood pressed against the
wall, his left wrist shoved in his mouth to quell his screaming. He
shook his head, back and forth, frantically.
Max
reached for the hatchet, grabbed it by the handle. "I do it." He would
too, was confident of himself. He saw now he had always had it in him:
his father's brusque willingness to puncture flesh and toil in blood. He
saw it clear, and with a kind of dismay.
"No,"
his father said, wrenching the hatchet away, pushing Max back. Max
bumped the worktable, and a few stakes rolled off, clattering to the
dust. "Pick those up."
Rudy
bolted, but slipped on the steps, falling to all fours and banging his
knees. Their father grabbed him by the hair and hauled him backwards,
throwing him to the floor. Rudy thudded into the dirt, sprawling on his
belly. He rolled over. When he spoke his voice was unrecognizable.
"Please!" he screamed. "Please don't! I'm scared. Please father don't make me."
The
mallet in one hand, half a dozen stakes in the other, Max stepped
forward, thought he would intervene, but his father swiveled, caught his
elbow, shoved him at the stairs.
"Up. Now." Giving him another push as he spoke.
Max fell on the stairs, barking one of his own shins.
Their father bent to grab Rudy by the arm, but he squirmed away, crabwalking over the dirt for a far corner of the room.
"Come. I help you," their father said. "Her neck is brittle. It won't take long."
Rudy shook his head, backed further into the corner by the coal bin.
His father flung the axe in the dirt. "Then you will remain here until you are in a more complaisant state of mind."
He turned, took Max's arm and thrust him towards the top of the steps.
"No!" Rudy screamed, getting up, lunging for the stairs.
The
handle of the hatchet got caught between his feet, though, and he
tripped on it, crashed to his knees. He got back up, but by then their
father was pushing Max through the door at the top of the staircase,
following him through. He slammed it behind them. Rudy hit the other
side a moment later, as their father was turning that silver key in the
lock.
"Please!" Rudy cried. "I'm scared! I'm scared I want to come out!"
Max
stood in the kitchen. His ears were ringing. He wanted to say stop it,
open the door, but couldn't get the words out, felt his throat closing.
His arms hung at his sides, his hands heavy, as if cast from lead.
No-not lead. They were heavy from the things in them. The mallet. The
stakes.
His
father panted for breath, his broad forehead resting against the shut
door. When he finally stepped back, his hair was scrambled, and his
collar had popped loose.
"You
see what he make me do?" he said. "Your mother was also so, just as
unbending and hysterical, just as in need of firm instruction. I tried,
I-"
The
old man turned to look at him, and in the instant before Max hit him
with the mallet, his father had time to register shock, even wonder. Max
caught him across the jaw, a blow that connected with a bony clunk, and
enough force to drive a shivering feeling of impact up into his elbow.
His father sagged to one knee, but Max had to hit him again to sprawl
him on his back.
Abraham's
eyelids sank as he began to slide into unconsciousness, but they came
up again when Max sat down on top of him. His father opened his mouth to
say something, but Max had heard enough, was through talking, had never
been much when it came to talk anyway. What mattered now was the work
of his hands; work he had a natural instinct for, had maybe been born
to.
He
put the tip of the stake where his father had showed him and struck the
hilt with the mallet. It turned out it was all true, what the old man
had told him in the basement. There was wailing and profanity and a
frantic struggle to get away, but it was over soon enough.
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